2008年12月31日星期三

SEE A BETTER YEAR.


原先想搞的年度十大专辑,书籍,电影排行最后还是没能坚持下来,搞了一个专辑排行写理由的时候差点全部写成“I KNOW.I WANT THAT ONE.”WHATEVER...如果你们还期待着看我不知所云的文风的话,NOW,I'M BACK。现在开始2008年的总结。
1,I CAN ONLY DISAPPOINT YOU
ALL APOLOGISE,我一如既往的让所有人都失望。I'M FUCKED UP.所有事情还是一团糟,自己的事情自己还是处理不了,到头来还是到处拉人诉苦,在批判和安慰中继续活下去...继续FUCKED UP...继续怒爬。已经用了一年半,还是没有从高中生过度成大学生,心理年龄还是不正常的小。事实是,我觉得即便是被打击过四年以后,少的那根筋还是少着,缺的那个心眼还是缺着,想不明白的事还是永远想不明白,做错的事依然不知道错在哪里。
2,COFFE & TV
之前喜欢冬天猛喝热咖啡一边听LIAM唱SUPERSONIC的习惯已经荡然无存了。因为咖啡太贵,买回宿舍会遭人白眼。衣服,鞋子最好从家里带或者网购,说价钱的时候要打五折往下说。开学的时候偷偷去吃寿司和KFC被人瞧见后就再也没去过。不喝咖啡难受的改嚼口香糖,一瓶十块左右的口香糖又遭人白眼...看来以后我只能买白砂糖和味精回来啃了。好不容易把佛罗伦萨盼进了欧冠,前大半学期没了网络,熬夜看球顶着个黑眼圈去上早读的日子永远不回来了...后来有气无力的看了录像,还是被挤回了联盟杯,从什么时候开始我已经不把球队成绩挂在心头了呢,无论如何,有你就很好。和你们一起,起码我就还知道自己剩着那么点儿少年心气儿...
3,MEETING PEOPLE IS EASY
如果我今后因为校园枪击案被送上刑事法庭,请将我的怨恨埋葬在6号监狱...
其实我不想一个人在图书馆的小黑路上来来回回,其实我也不想吃饭的时候盯着盘子猛塞一言不发,其实我也不想再集体活动的时候躲在一边玩手机里的贪吃蛇游戏...我只是不知道应该说些什么,何况在姑娘们卧谈会说多想多想找个男人的时候突然提起:“其实我喜欢秃的”这种冷场的话真的很不道德。作为一台自动提款机,少说话多给钱是我一贯的作风,在财政上永远纠缠不清也是我的风格。2囧囧8年过完,我已经撇开从前貌似人缘很好的假象,明确自己的确是有很严重人际交往障碍。值得高兴的是,真诚的泪水远比虚伪的笑容要让我愉悦。
4,different class
当然,英语一班的孩子们给全班人分糖吃的时候我已经激动到失控了。每天晚上去上课就是为了看一看现在依然有认真学习的孩子们也好。和大家讨论学术问题总是让我感到无比的舒心。只要有一刻离开讨论钱和男人我就能享受到片刻的宁静。
5,joy!
麦斯米兰的小手很白,蒙克的画很精妙,图书馆里的书还是一样让人不能忍,宿舍路上卖的烤地瓜很热乎,MTV台播的THE VERVE演唱会看的很爽。
6,SOULMATES NEVER DIE
给一切被我发短信骚扰说我男人们和各种乱七八糟的事物的朋友们一声衷心的:“谢谢”。你们给我回信息的意义在于让我还不至于憋疯掉。给一切提醒我天冷加衣,感冒吃药的朋友们一声:“谢谢”。我才不至于在任何时候都不停的对自己是否存在产生质疑。如果问我有没有在黑暗中因为思念你们而默默的哭泣?我可以很肯定说,有的,不止一次...或许写文章的现在。我的确是个特别不省心的孩子,特别二特别傻逼而且很容易胡思乱想,不知道再走多远我就终于坚持不住了。我对孤独的恐惧感并没有随着时间消减而是正在与日俱增。I DON'T KNOW HOW MUCH I LOVE YOU.WISH ONE OF YOU WERE HERE.09年OASIS要是来的话,我们一起去看吧,在我冲上舞台欲抱LIAM大腿的时候一定要拉住我!
7,keep dream alive
只要不要再继续这种生活,我就满意了。I WANNA A PREFECT BODY.I WANNA A PERFECT SOUL.I WISH I COULD BE HAPPY AND LONELY.
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SEE A BETTER YEAR.............

HAPPY NEW YEAR!





PS:RADIOHEAD的图。极大的讽刺

2008年12月20日星期六

我的2008十大专辑

2008十大专辑
NO.1

MANSUN《Attack Of The Grey Lantern》

入选理由:
MANSUN的第一张专辑在去年的期末考试前姗姗而来,当时一边对付高数一边被灰灯笼侵袭着,每每都想拿改锥戳自己大腿,不停的发短信到处吼:MANSUN太牛逼啦!从此,我听过全集的乐队继NIRVANA之后深深的刻上了MANSUN的名字。从此,我每次上网有多了一个去处——PAUL DRAPER的博客。从此,有两只尻要被我在整整一个2008年或者更长的时间段用有关MANSUN的八卦废话骚扰。

NO.2

MANSUN《SIX》
入选理由:关于《SIX》和灰灯笼谁第一的问题困扰了我已久,如PAUL所说《SIX》那是商业的败笔,艺术的胜利。的确,如泡儿所说,在六问世后的十几年间,每年都有人将其排上自己年度排行榜的首位,甚至从未撤下来。英伦府从此覆灭。

NO.3


FRANZ FERIDINAND《FRANZ FERIDINAND》
入选理由:
毫不掩饰对费迪南德的喜爱,或者只是由于其干净利落的节奏和二百五的舞台表演。梆梆的吉他加跺脚声总感觉是一群南美少年在路上的故事。FRANZ FERDINAND,匈牙利王子的名字,至今不知道是不是从历史书里直接翻来的。虽然至今除了主唱ALEX之外其他人一个都认不得,但是如今的乐队,FRANZ FERDINAND当之无愧为心中的第一。

NO.4


Graham Coxon《Love Travels At Illegal Speeds》

入选理由:在民工房居住的最黑暗时期,匍匐在画板上快要失声痛哭的时候遇到了GRAHAM。当然除去什么“我喜欢吃大块大块的肉”这种“有分量”话…GRAHAM每次开口都让我感到内心极其耸动,听《LIVING》的时候,这个闷骚纠结男总是一句一句话戳到心坎里。GRAHAM, WHEN SEE YOU MY LIFE TURN SO BUEATIFUL。



NO.5


MIKA《Life In Cartoon Motion》

2007年的专辑放到2008年来听,之前称为独立,后来叫做流行。WHATEVER,我本来就是一大俗人。我就是喜欢看米卡的花菜头,喜欢听他的小尖嗓,喜欢他色彩斑斓的衣服,喜欢望着他在台上上窜下跳,喜欢在别人问“米卡是什么风格?”的时候回答:“他是唱儿歌的!”

NO.6



OASIS《 DIG OUT YOUR SOUL》

入选理由:《WHATEVER》时期一去不回了,亲爱的傻乎乎的LIAM也懂得写歌了,而且还写的那么好!就那一首《I’M OUTTA TIME》,每每听到都念物力维艰,涕泪横流。
NO.7

KASABIAN《EMPICE》
入选理由:SHOEGAZING的敲门砖。

NO.8

HOT HOT HEAT《ELEVATOR》

入选理由:
足够欢快的小朋克,没有内涵吗?听的时候不带动脑子的,可是我就是听着舒服。何必折磨自己足够可怜的灵魂呢?

NO.9


MAGAZINE《REAL LIFE》
入选理由:影响MANSUN的伟大乐队。

NO.10


《Les Chansons d'Amour》


入选理由:是的!我一直很喜欢法语歌,今年也一样!

2008年12月3日星期三

THAT DAY ,I AM NOT ME



HOPE IS A GOOD THING.AND GOOD THINGS NEVER DIE.

THIS IS REALLY HAPPENING!

不能再软弱下去!

2008年11月26日星期三

i wanna...

I went to the woods ,
because I wanted to live deliberately,
I wanted to live deep and suck out all the marrow of life,
and not when I had come to die,
discover that I had not lived.


-------------I really wanna a "Dead Poets Society".How i wish that i am not alone.

2008年11月25日星期二

KILL TIME


I fear of slepp.
I can not cry.
Cause a sharp knife will cut my mind.
When this happen?I don't mind.
All I want to find ,is the deadline.
Time is always time.
Hurt inside.
Pass me by,
kill my life.

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Something wrote in english class.Just kill time.

2008年11月21日星期五

ON READING



我所能做的就是在无法入睡时读一本书,它撕裂了我的生命,但那是一次伟大的逃亡!

你不曾珍惜过的一切总会在某个恰当的时刻让你承受苦难。就像家乡,像晚餐,像你以为那放学路上将会是无穷无尽的谈话…像那个从始至终都作为一种不可或缺的存在的地方——图书馆。

长达几个星期以来,我始终在判断,分析,理解那不可理喻的歇斯底里的悲哀的源头,难道只是因为住在燥热的民工房?只是因为再也没有人愿意听你说话?只是因为每天6趟往返于教室与牢房之间?只是因为缺乏睡眠到抓狂?可是为什么…在那个晚上你在摇摇晃晃的下铺捧着一本《布鲁克林的荒唐事》仅仅看了一章心中就感到无比的安宁?

刚开学时因为两边课业的双重压力,借下的《墓后回忆录》《隆美尔》《狗娘养的战争》每本都翻不到一半就被那欠着的8毛钱催着还回去了…谁知道这些书就像《希特勒的男孩》里缓缓沉入水中的莱布尼奇,FRANZ FREDINAND说的好:YOU SEE HER,YOU CAN’T TOUCH HER.YOU HEAR HER,YOU CAN’T HOLD HER. 从此没有枕边书的日子到来了……你的枕边曾躺过不少美人,但是它们现在全被锁在了万恶的仓库里,以图书馆装修的名义!




接下来的日子,左边是一世二世三世无穷无尽,右边是静力学动力学轮番上阵…消遣只有听很多音乐,看很多电影。

音乐这东西,就像那另一个十分睿智的老秃男尼克霍恩比说的:”哪一个先?音乐还是苦难?我很凄苦是因为听了音乐的缘故吗?还是我因为很凄苦而听音乐?这些唱片让你变得忧郁吗?”是的,这些唱片让我变得忧郁非常…别指望我听完21个版本的《CREEP》以后还能笑着说:“今天中午吃什么?”;更别想我听着“SHE SAY SHE HAD NO TIME”还幻想自己12点之前就能把那张A2的大图画完!!!

电影,也就是每天晚上给你打一针强心针,顺便告诉你有人比你还惨,就这样了。第二天清晨,一睁眼,就知道昨夜的感动不能作用到今天的毛邓三课上……写不出论文一样写不出,饭堂的肉一样那么咸,没热水洗澡又不能不洗,每天说的话没几句还一样全是废话,笑不出来就算了起码不要哭…如果这时候恰好你知道的比分是拜仁3:0佛罗伦萨,而你又恰好是战败方的球迷。恭喜,这周你都会活的像个“CREEP”了。



上帝说:要有光!于是图书馆竣工了!一个晚上能读多少书?660页中的260页。你听见那个在国概课本上出现过的貌似很出名的叫做莎士比亚的人说他曾经“见到草包穿的富丽堂皇,见到纯洁的盟誓遭恶意破坏,见到荣誉被可耻的放错了位置,见到不义玷污了至高的正义,见到文化被当局封住了嘴巴,见到愚蠢控制着智慧”那一刻,其实你想说的只是:哥们儿,我也见过耶!

从此以后,你的枕边趟着《英国历代诗选》和英文版《红与黑》,你的书包里总是揣着一本《白痴》(在遇到白痴的时候使用),期待着:接下来的两个月,一定不会比之前的两个月难过吧……

2008年11月13日星期四

5 TO 0

5M,
5M,和舞台中央的MAXIMILAN的垂直距离,因为去的晚,而且挤不过前面疯狂的姐姐,不知所以的大叔和第一次听说MAXI也跟着瞎起哄某些大哥(比如在小麦出场的时候狂吼:他怎么留着个披头士的头?!),我们能做到最好的距离就是隔着两个人头和N台照相机看着舞台中央的MAXIMILAN。所以我没有选择拿那台相数超低的手机乱拍,也没有体力在人群中狂踩别人的脚…最后想想,还是听罢,远远的看着,静静的听,在每一首歌结束后鼓掌,在《MISS UNDERWATER》的前奏响起的时候完全抑制不住,差点鼻涕眼泪一起流下来…然后发现,我居然已经把那首歌的歌词完整的记下来了。在前面举着相机猛拍的姐姐的手臂划出的圆弧中听完一首又一首,盯着MAXI在他每一次将头转向左边的时候向他挥手。那些熟悉的吉他声,键盘声,鼓声,还有MAXI的声音,5米就够了。
2 HOUR
踮着脚尖站了两个小时,第一个愿望是马上能长高到20CM,第二个愿望是前面的人全部变矮20CM…
0M
一切都应该从那一刻开始,在那一刻停止。
之前在校内上搞了个傻乎乎的投票:见到麦斯米兰我要说什么?(前提是他能听见的情况下)
没想到我还真说了几句他能听见的话…可是完全就像昨天熬夜想破头考虑到底是用433还是4321结果到末了却上了个442 …罢了,实用主义有时候事半功倍。
完全没预料到MAXI就这么出来签名了,所有人立刻开始拿着纸笔尖叫向MAXIMILAN做向心运动。差点被淹没在上下挥舞的手臂和千篇一律的:“MAXI,I LOVE YOU!”了。或许是我穿的衣服真的很特别,或许是长脸的作用导致了惺惺相惜,或许也就是一个小概率随机事件的发生,当MAXIMILAN转过脸用不可思议的蓝眼睛直视我的时候(我肯定起码有两秒钟!),我习惯性的露出了一个见到大熟人的标准微笑,然后在千分之一秒内反应过来,开始用BRIAN MOLKO的小尖嗓开始吼出在我每年说的无穷无尽的废话中唯一有意义的那一句:MAXI, GIVE ME YOUR HAND!后来回想起来,从中学就被老师教育的要用英语思考,终于在那一刻兑现了,(我保证我当时没有想着GIVE SB STH&GIVE STH TO SB这种傻乎乎的语法)这简直能算的上我说的第一句英语…(如果你认为口语课上结结巴巴,见着外教还跟人家说“好”,没事无聊非得和中国人用英语聊天那些都算说英语的话..那我认了)所以,交流的欲望导致语言的产生。后来回想起来,后面三秒钟的拉小手直让我想起米开朗基罗的《创造亚当》。从此连赵家的狗多看我两眼都可以算是吉兆了…握完手之后,心情激动至崩溃,立刻从BRIAN的小尖嗓跳跃到鲍勃迪伦的公鸭嗓,吼出一句声嘶力竭的:THANK YOU !脑残了一下准备离去,突然发现手上还拽着要签名的便签本…立刻踩过不知谁的众多的脚,伸手把本子递过去。小概率随机事件再一次发生,(别问我为什么那天特别招帅哥待见)眼看签名签到“MAXI”的时候,一群保安立刻把0米的距离扩大到3米…MAXIMILAN低头继续把后面的字签完举着本子四处晃…我被赶到两万英尺以外了都。后来仿佛是看到了,我吼:MAXI,THAT’S MY PAPER.THROW IT TO ME。犹犹豫豫了一阵,在一阵兵荒马乱中,我可怜的可爱的便签本灰飞烟灭了…(也不知被哪个恐怖的女歌迷抢去了)。还好之前已经拿到了签名CD,姑且聊以自慰。而且要是MAXI把那便签本留下了我这儿还有另一半以后可以拿去相认呢…就这么着吧。想想明年人家来的时候说点什么。
1000MILES AWAY…

好吧,我承认…我晚上的确失眠了。

2008年11月8日星期六

世界上的每一个清晨。

今天早上,睁开眼睛,去饭堂吃饭,旁边坐着一个金发帅哥...到教室,突然发现自己把学位丢了。

中午睡觉,睁开眼睛,去上课,听国概老师把罗马尼亚,格鲁吉亚以及俄罗斯全都鄙视了一番。去饭堂吃饭,旁边又坐了一个金发帅哥...羞涩的导致食欲不振...几乎没吃,爬回宿舍了。


世界上的每一个清晨

日出不能将悲伤终结...

I'M NOT HERE.THIS IS NOT HAPPENING...

2008年10月30日星期四

Goodbye my love,Goodbye my first man.


All of you know what have happened.Finally, i know what happen to forever.nothing forever.Nothing.so what can i say to you."Marat,don'give up""Marat,stay...please""Marat,you are may own man.."everything must go,sooner or later.all i can do is that remember your smile,your lovely hair.the pain we share,the happiness we enjoy.you make me fall in love with Russia. i always dream of marrying a man like you.you are the top of the world.always & forver.no one else like you.You are part of me.i can't say much.i am afraid that i would begin to cry and never stop.

CAUSE
Marat Safin,
YOU ARE MY FIRST MAN!


Goodbye my love.Goodbye...

(those days i just wanna die...i don't know why .i just hate life)

2008年10月17日星期五

THE MAGAZINE...


Q: You wrote an article last year for the 10th Anniversary of 'Attack of the Grey Lantern', and this year is the 10th Anniversary of 'Six', you also wrote a blog to reveal lots of secretes behind 'Six', do you think this is a good way to celebrate the anniversaries?

Paul: To share some stories of that time and look back to reveal what the album is about with the fans is the best way I can come up with to celebrate the anniversary, and I believe they are willing to know these stories, besides, also I can adjust my mood when writing this blog, fetch up some old memories and come up with some new ideas at the same time. The fans who are interested in the blog subscribed through the mailing list and I emailed to everyone as soon as the blog was finished, if they have any questions, they can let me know through the official forum. Besides, I also put some singles, b-sides and EPs, demos, videos which are during Six period on MySpace and Facebook for them to download.

Q: So the best way to keep in touch with your fans is through the network?

Paul: Yeah, I guess we are the only band who keeps such a close relationship with our fans.

Q: Do you listen back to Mansun's songs? Which one do you like the most?

Paul: Well….the four albums chronicle the different states of the band. For me, my favorite song is 'Keep Telling Myself' from 'Kleptomania'.

Q: How is your relationships with the former band members? Do you still cannot forgive Stove?

Paul: I meet Andie very often, keep contact with Chad mostly by Email, as for Stove, we have no contact for ages, so i have no idea of where is he and what he's doing.

Q: What's the possibility of Mansun's reforming?

Paul: Not possible as far as i can tell, we have different opinions about the reforming, and seeing the current conditions, there's no meaning to do so, i also think it make no sense. Mansun days are past and gone, we do not like to keep stay in the old times, the anniversary is just for nostalgic and self-examination, I think the fans will understand us.

Q: Back to the old times, Mansun were called as 'post-Oasis','new-Radiohead' and 'Brit-R.E.M', what do you think of such comparison?

Paul: er...i don't care much about it, Mansun has it's own style, we have our great dedicated fans, both the band and the fans know what kind of music that Mansun was doing, and we really have make out something new, those labels, i think are made out by those who are not quite know about Mansun, or just don't know how to describe Mansun.

Q: What's your new album will be like?

Paul: It will be very different from Mansun's albums. A new track will be mailed through the mailing list once it's finished, but still i don't want to set an exact deadline for it, i hope to make it as how it goes.

Q: You have obtained many inspirations for the albums from many philosophies and religions, they also effect yourself in many ways, tell us how dose the philosophy effect on your music producing?

Paul: The East cultures and the the philosophies that i believe in influenced mostly on Mansun's lyrics and song writings, but speak to the inspirations on music, the influences are far more than these. I like to associate freely from a small image, or expend from symbolistic things, or just from some normal daily stuff, like fashions or something.

Q: If you were to choose the greatest ever albums that released in the last decade, what would be in your mind? Do you think AOTGL should be counted in?
  
Paul: It's hard to say really, everyone have their own taste I suppose. If insisted then I guess our second release 'SIX' is more convincing, as for the others...'The Holy Bible' by Manic Street Preachers and their earlier releases are brilliant. Fact is Brit-pop during that decade saw far more than 10 best works so the answer is varied.
  
Q: How do you think of the flourishing new bands in Britain, like Arctic Monkeys, Babyshambles etc? As the recording and operational mode of the new bands couldn't be more different.
  
Paul: I'd appreciate those bands you've mentioned, they really have some thoughts and are open to new stuffs, they are just as impressing as the elder ones.Of course the elders are consistantly breaking the rules and are still taking the lead, like Radiohead. But I still remains on Queens of the Stone Age or The White Stripes or something like that, they never bored me,and that's great.
  
Q: You've got loads of fans in China, fancy a tour here? I reckon that you once showed your interests in visiting Shanghai, Beijing and the Great Wall.
  
Paul: Of course, but sadly no one's planning it so it's still a wish by now, also I'm still in my recording procession at present. But if permits, I'd give a go, and make a detailed plan for that.After all it's so big a event for fans and myself.
  
Q: Have you read the fanzine done by your Chinese fans for the 10th anniversary of SIX? Anything you'd like to say to them?
  
Paul: yes, I know I have a gang of Mansun diehards in China,and I always want to say thank you for your concernment and passion, you know it's you that keeps Mansun alive. 10 years is a long time but after all these years you still paid such efforts in celebriting this release, making me feel so delighted to find that Mansun is a very lucky band indeed. I can't thank more but keep on doing what I'm doing right now , and do it well.
  
Q: Tomorrow is your birthday (Sep.26), happy birthday to you Paul!

Paul: oh cheers! Have a nice week.


THE THINGS ON THE MAGAZINE I BOUGHT.
NOTHING MUCH
ENJOY IT

2008年10月13日星期一

lovely...


just feel lovely....

2008年10月8日星期三

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2008年10月6日星期一

celebrate the whole word~




ahha~everyone.i am back in the prison again.i feel just fine. why is that?get used to it?maybe.




TV TIME

i think i became a potato.



first of all,i have a very nice holiday,anyway.the most valuable thing in this fucking world is freedom.although i have so much homework to do every fucking day,i can watch MTV channel in the evening. i can watch an excellent concert of THE VERVE.it ecatasized me. they have made some new songs for us.MIKA is still sweet. and i think i find my "mika" this term.his name is JASON MARZ...his song is pure and full of thanks. BON JOVI's song calledmake me burn into tears.they are great !
for a longly soul i have a such nice time. so there is nohing have to diying for.






then ,i can see some movies &tv programs from HONGKONG. i love it very much.those cartoons are interesting!



LIVE TIME



i went to NO+CH.nothing special,music is fine.but i am satisfied.i finally went out. a few steps farther than the bookshop. (but i still can't protect myself from buying too many books.)==



DEAMER


i think it's normal to wake up with a bad dream.i have all kinds of nightmare.but today is different.I HAVE DEARMED OF JONNY GREENWOOD!you know what~my sweet little greenwood. i holding him tightly.......in a bus......but it's ok,fine,perfect~!

2008年9月26日星期五

this is real life.

errr~is anybody here? yep,this is my new blog.

firstly,i may say something in english for the reason you may know.but who need reasons when you have got...got...got what?got so many homework to do !that's it.i am still myself.i am here.

secondly,i just want to say that those brusters made my life totally shit.lack of sleeping,lack of talking,lack of smile..everyday,every fucking day!i just want them to piss off.but i , myself is a fucking wanker.i can't stand it.but i must...don't worry about me.you know,every fucker wouldn't fuck off easily.and the world,is biult by wankers.(paul auster said)

thirdly,i restart my smile when listen to the song called

2008年9月20日星期六